This morning I awoke and just felt sick to my stomach. I wasn't motivated. I took nearly 1 1/2 hours to get ready. The whole way to work I kept thinking about the people that they laid off. Thinking that maybe I would be next. Thinking about how scared they must be to be without a job during a time when it is so hard to find a job that will pay the bills. What are they going to do? Why exactly did we let them go. Is the money that they were paying these six people really going to save the budget that much? $250,000... seriously. Was it worth it? Maybe they should have gotten rid of some of the "executives" that aren't bringing anything to the table. Maybe they shouldn't have paid Ronn so much for so long. It's especially bad because my team needs another employee. Couldn't they have transferred one of those who got fired over to us? Given them a chance? No. I guess that is too much to ask. We put forth this family persona but don't hesitate to cut people off without any warning. Bullshit.

How safe can I feel anymore?

New blog... hopefully will help me vent my frustrations. I used to write everyday. Now it seems as though I find it a chore to sit down and write out exactly what I am thinking. I want this to change. If I get my thoughts out there maybe they will stop dancing in my head at 3AM keeping me awake.

So you've decided to read this. Why? I know why I read peoples' blogs. I hope to connect with them in some way that I didn't know existed. I want to find out some interesting tidbit about their life. Some factoid that links me with a person that I initially thought I had nothing in common with. I hope you find whatever you are looking for.

So comment if you like... or stay silent if you wish. I'll continue to write whether anyone reads this or not.